Another month, another failure

Yay, another month over. Another month, another failure. Yes, it is true my business sort of kicked up. But there is so much to do, and so little time. Too much to do. Too much waste. I have a class tomorrow 9AM-2PM. Fuck it I don’t wanna go. I’ll waste even more of my time for stupid bullshit classes I don’t care about.

Which leads me to the next point: I hate old people. They always try to waste your time. I had a 70 old teacher giving me a 3-hours mandatory assistance class. It was so boring it was actually the only class I cried in. He just wasted our time with crap no one gives a shit about. I’ve now come to realize I’ve wasted 20 years of my life for others. I’ve done as they asked, I studied, and it was all a big waste.
The entire world is a scam and a waste of time, period. It’s like people wanted you to get as old as possible because youth is sometimes to envy. It took me a while to understand, but old people envy the youth, they do everything to do it because they know their own youth is gone, that they’ve most likely wasted it, and that they’ll never get it back.

And I feel my own youth, my own energy is leaving me, as I waste time doing that stupid bullshit, listening to boring conferences on “1947: the year that changed the pension plans”. Three years of my life wasted in that stupid university. And other people? They don’t seem to care. They have nothing better to do.

4 more months of my life, gone forever, and very little accomplished. Why can’t I just give up everything? I don’t give a shit about actuarial science, I don’t give a shit about life insurance and I couldn’t care less of car damage. Seriously. I have a business to run, books to run and places to visits.

Another month ends tonight and another 30 days of my existence gone forever for that stupid world full of shit and waste of time.